From Shilong...To YOU

WALK WITH YOU

Walking a life of journey with YOU,
Holding closely to me the 1st moment I knew YOU personally,
Carved deepy in my deepest heart of heart,
The ridiculous hope YOU had given me even in times of desperation.

Eight years had gone by,
Days and days i indulge myself in all sorts of things but never YOU
Occasionally remembering YOU especially in times of help and need,
And the lousy and unworthy person I am,
Will pray earnestly to YOU.
And yet YOU never forget me.
Downcast is my soul,
Hopelessness is seen through my eyes,
As I wonder why lift just turn into a heap of garbage.

Where is Hope?

I wonder in my mind.

Hoping that the hope will just come to me.

With a hope that I can know YOU.

YOU practically yell at me,

Desperately wanting me to open my heart and let YOU enter.

And yet the pride within me say 'NO',

And YOU were rejected like 2000 years ago.

But YOU never gave up on me,

No matter how many times I rejected YOU,

Slam the door at YOU,

Knocking YOU out of breath,

YOU just stand outside my heart,

Rubbing YOUR poor injured nose,

Waiting patiently for me to open my door.

Days and months and years passed,

And the day finally came,

My heart stopped its beating.

As life became plain meaningless,

As the door just creaked open as the house crashed,

YOU took the chance and enter the door,

And life is never the same.

But the journey does not end here,

Struggles still come and visit me,

Sometimes YOU will open the door and meet it.

At times I will rush to the door,

Expecting something good to happen out of what I had done,

Yet I meet hurricanes and tornadoes,

And my house got damaged.

Feeling despaired and wanting to give up,

I hold a hammer in one hand and nails on the other.

I rebuilt the house slowly but yet YOU just sat there looking at me.

"Why don't YOU help me" is what I yelled at YOU,

YOU never asked is the answer YOU gave.

I throw my hammer away and look at YOU,

Then I finally sat down and beads of sweat poured out from within me.

Finally YOU rosed up,

Thinking that YOU finally will do work after free lodging in my house for so long.

Yet YOU say "If you want the house to be rebuilt, it is easy but you got to give up your most prized tree in the garden".

I remember the angry look i gave YOU

Demanding YOU to use another tree.

And YOU firmly rejected it.

And days passed again,

With the two of us sitting opposite each other,

And in total helplessness,

I surrenderred.

With a satisfactory look, YOU cut down the tree I hold dearly,

as YOUR back is turned on me.

I cried till beyond measure and sleep,

Not knowing that YOU also cried as YOU cut down the tree.

And a house that is more magnificent thatn ever I could imagine or seen,

was built during the time i was asleep.

And YOU sat down beside me,

Telling me "That tree got the toughest material and it will shelter you from further disasters which might fall upon you.Your heart grieved for the tree,

but does not my heart also grieve for you.

Seeing you sleep without a roof and wrap yourself in blanket and tremble as night crept in?"

I finally realized how great YOU are,

And with a shameful guilt that suddenly overwhemed me,

I start to keep myself a distance away from YOU.

And that moment YOU happily thought that we can finally strike a converation,

YOU were rejected yet again.

And days go by and the talkative YOU also became silent,

But my curiosity took control of me.

And yet at that time, I started to wonder who ecactly are YOU.

But YOU became silent,

NO longer the usual self YOU are.

NOW IT'S MY TURN,

TO SEEK YOU,

STRIKE CONVERSATION WITH YOU.

PURSUE YOU AS YOU ONCE PURSUED ME.

SHOWING YOU I REALY WANT TO KNOW YOU AND WALK INTIMATELY WITH YOU.

Thank God, for giving me a new chance to strt my life again.

Never will I lose hope again

FOR MY HOPE IS IN YOU!